When one produces a certain work of art, it usually comes from something - a thought or an idea, feeling and emotions, an inspiration. Writing songs is no different. Despite the truth about every songwriter being different from the other, it will always be universal that every song is conceived by something that is already there.
Fast forward to days, months, years or even decades when the subject of the written art is not anymore what it was, where it was before or what you want, the song of your very own making can cause you that certain feeling that is anything but positive. It becomes all the more difficult when the theme revolves around that particular something that is euphoric, ecstatic, happy... when currently, you are on the opposite pole.
It will always be a reminder of what was. It will always bring you to the place you no longer are stepping onto right now. It will always cause you to long for the air you were used to take in at the moment you've penned the song. It will never fail to make you feel feelings.
It is different when somebody else wrote it. Theme songs, yes, like sad movies, can make you cry. But you won't have an idea of what it can bring you unless you've made it yourself. When it originated from inside you. When the melody reflected where your mind went and how fast your heart was beating. When your words said what you mean. When you took the time to give life to something that is your own, and immortalize the time and space you were living for at the moment. Indeed, change is constant. And it is harder when you have put a cement on something you know will eventually be altered and be, nothing.
True enough, I write songs which I eventually dread sometimes. And I can't help but still listen.
